Sadness is a Call for Reconnection

Sadness can consume you.

I’ll never forget when I was a demo body during a Thai massage training and the teacher put his hand on my low belly and said, “sadness.” I was half unsettled that he could sense that and half ticked off that he just told the entire room one of my secret emotions buried deep into my root.

I wasn’t sure what to do with that deep sadness at the time. All I knew was that I was lonely inside of the relationship I had been in for the past few years. 

Connecting to My Heart
As I explored Mayan Abdominal Massage for myself, I learned that the uterus is the second heart of the woman. And if it’s out of balance the entire woman is out of balance. My uterus was literally hiding on the left side, sometimes in the back of my pelvis. 

On the day before the new moon and eclipse, I saw my friend for a Mayan Abdominal Therapy session. My mood had been low all week with a strong feeling of disconnection and the emotions of sadness and grief. It’s been maybe two years since first starting this work and my uterus was sparkling and continues to stay in place in the Shushumna, at center of my pelvis where she should reside. My friend guided me to open my heart center as I felt like it was maybe only 50% open. It was challenging for me.

Horses and Intuition
Later that same day I sat down at the horse ranch while my dog, Ellie, was getting trained. One of the ponies came up to me with the side of his body in front to get petted. Then, he slowly turned his head and plopped his nose right into my chest {heart center} and let it rest there for at least 30 seconds. I was astounded. My friend who owns the ranch saw it and I told her about working with my heart earlier. Horses know where we hold tension.

Spending time with the horses on the ranch helps me to get back into my body. As I acknowledged and explored the sadness I was feeling, I did some journaling and meditation practices at home to reconnect to my feminine wisdom, what nourishes my creative energy and reveals my radiance.

When these emotions come up, we are being called to go inward and reconnect to what’s been lost. The body is always our guide, so the more we’re in tune, the more we know what to do to allow these emotions to surface and flow through. It’s in the release, or the shedding of old skin, that we activate the life/death/life cycle and can begin anew. 

How are you listening to your body and reconnecting?