Embrace Your Beauty

I found two boxes of old photos from high school and travels to both Guatemala and Russia. My 20-year high school reunion is coming up so I looked through my senior memory book. The first thought I had was, "Damn. I was beautiful. I can't believe I ever thought I was fat." Of course, I still think I'm beautiful. However, I was just amazed at how insecure I was and how much I didn't love myself and my body back then. 

I told my mother once that I hated myself just as much when I was skinny as I was at my heaviest weight. It just proves that the shape of my body has little to do with how I value myself. It took me years of yoga, meditation and a huge shift in mindset to let those limiting beliefs fall away. Confidence took their place. 

I am at the heaviest weight I've ever been, but I decided it was enough. So, I built a business anyway. I decided to date again and have went out with the most handsome men {and have had the most amazing sex!}. I jump on Facebook Lives without a care. I get regular photo shoots because I love having an excuse to feel like a movie star. I go to the pool and the beach and don't cover up. I do all of the things that make me feel pretty like getting my hair and nails done on a regular basis. And in the process, the weight began to drop off. 

Sure, I still have days where I don't feel my best. But then I look at a photo of Ashley Graham rockin' her thighs and I decide to go rock my thighs, too. Fuck it. 

What are you doing to embrace your beauty?

Alyssa PfennigComment